Press Pause

I laid in bed this morning, blinking, staring at the ceiling, watching the shadows cast by headlamps pass over the wall of our bedroom, taking stock of the new reality of the next 10 or so days of our lives and reassessing my business and personal plans, yet again, for the next few weeks. 

Our daughter had just gotten over a cold. It wasn’t covid, thank god, but it was enough to keep her home, warrant a trip to her pediatrician’s office and create a four day stretch of fun but exhausting nonstop parenting. 

She was now healthy and ready to return to daycare. Structure and socializing for her and a breather for mom and dad to clean, regroup and focus on making a bit of money. 

My new website is up. Most of the work on it is the same but the new site is built on WordPress and is much better than my previous Wix sites in just about every way. Plans are coming together to create an exciting new portfolio of headshots, too, that better represent the flow and aesthetics of my typical headshot sessions. The new headshot page of my website is going to really sing. 

And then the email hits at 6:18am this morning that one of my daughters classmates tested positive for covid, so her class must quarantine for 10 days. We are lucky our daughter was out sick with her noncovid cold when she was. We somehow managed to dodge another bullet. I hope her classmates, their parents and the school faculty stay negative or, worst case scenario, have light symptoms. 

Reassess

That all helps to put the yet another delay to getting back to business in perspective, but the constant starts and starts, pivots, interruptions, change of plans and whiplash while trying to parent and rebuild a small business is starting to wear on me. 

Nothing to do about it but soldier on and do what I can do and what needs to get done. 

The new portfolio of headshots doesn’t necessarily have to happen at this moment. I can concentrate on the other stuff; writing and posting about the fun and successful sessions I have managed to squeeze in over the past couple years of chaos. 

And being a dad. That always makes things better.